B.i.t.c.h.O.u.t.

2011-04-19T21:51:00.002+08:00

忘了我还有这么一个小小的空间，收藏着这么多点点滴滴。

been ages since the last update.

not that i have much to update for now.

work and growing up have changed me much.

a part of me wants to share. the other part yearns to be hidden.

you don't know me. and i won't let you know me too. :)

guess that's an adopted self-protective mechanism?

have learnt that revealing too much about myself does not help.

only a selective group who have been with me throughout the years will know me.

then again, who's to say that i'm still the same me?

Ralph Lauren Romance vMail

2009-05-18T02:12:00.001+08:00

2009-03-30T21:59:00.000+08:00

i feel lonely these days.

感情分析

2009-02-02T21:04:00.001+08:00

谭晓佳的感情分析

*遇到喜歡的對象只會遠遠欣賞，所以常常錯失好的姻緣
*對於感情外冷內熱，遇到熱烈追求的男生會裝冷而嚇跑對方
*很需要被呵護、寵愛，喜歡被放在手上疼的感覺
*適合早婚，本身容易因為年紀的增長而看淡感情終而不婚
*對於感情不會太執著，保持著隨緣的態度

神机妙算- character telling by name!

2009-02-02T20:46:00.001+08:00

谭晓佳的內在想法

*很好相處，愛好和平、不大會與人起衝突
*懂得討長輩的歡心，是個受長輩寵愛的人
*聰明、反應快，學習能力相當好
*常常三分鐘熱度的學習態度，所以會的東西很多、但沒一樣精
*害怕壓力太大，會當鴕鳥躲起來

谭晓佳的外在行為

*外表溫柔內心倔強的人，內心嚴重的缺乏安全感
*佔有慾會顯得比較強烈，常常會不安
*事情會自己全部攬起來做，比較勞碌命
*有時太愛計較，讓自己很累
*個性比較保守，做事相對也比較安份

...came across this at : http://www.fatemaster.tw/name.php .. seems quite accurate for me!

First Resignation

2008-10-02T00:26:00.001+08:00

i've officially tendered. 29th Oct would be my last day with the company. Any lobangs for me? :)

What your name means??

2008-04-01T23:18:00.003+08:00

Saw this on Von's blog.. and gave it a try..
guess it describes pretty much about me..
hightlighted the ones which i find especially true..
What do you think?

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.

You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.

You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are incredibly sexy and sensual. You have a naughty vibe that no one can ignore.

You have an unquenchable desire. And you are unrestrained in your passions.

You have a tendency to be unfaithful. Whether you fight it or give in to it is up to you.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.

You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.

You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.

You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.

At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.

You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries. --> I think i'm rather persistent a person.

You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Time Flies

2008-04-01T22:57:00.002+08:00

Am officially engaged to my dearest ah pek.
Bought over by a 0.61carat diamond ring during a surprise Bintan Trip on the 16th Feb 2008(was informed like only the night before?!)

Time flies..it's going to be our 3rd year together coming this June..and then it'll be a lifetime together with this guy i hated at first sight. =X

2008-01-30T21:41:00.000+08:00

Everytime i look back.. i feel so happy that i have moved on...
think i found my happiness... bought my house..
building my career..
earning my moolah *Ka Chink!*
*waiting for my diamond ring which is on the way..*

Going forward, i Need to learn to be a better people manager..
Do better, Earn More...
Grow my people and manage my emotions better..

Everyday is a learning process.
I shall not only survive.. I want to Shine!

2007-11-06T20:36:00.000+08:00

Mood swing today... Been so for many days. Wonder when i'll 'recover' from it all... Think it happens every few months, where i'll feel supremely down and lonely... Have a bunch of colleagues, yet i feel there's no friends around. Really i'm not as strong as i seem. :(

My Baby Nephew~

2007-11-05T21:44:00.001+08:00

my cousin just gave birth to this little boy last fri....

See how cute he is! :)

Our New Home

2007-10-22T21:28:00.000+08:00

Just bought a unit at La Casa on the 21st Oct 2007, the Executive Condo just diagonally opposite my house :)

It's the biggest (And most expensive) decision ever made in my life thus far!

T.O.P date likely to be by first quarter 2008.

Can't wait!

This is sooo exciting...

but been so busy settling the loans etc...

Need to think about reno soon.

Can't believe it.. We're getting our own Home!

2007-09-25T20:37:00.000+08:00

I still adore my ahpek :) planning for a trip to taipei this dec. I cant wait. Really!

2007-09-25T20:32:00.000+08:00

I dislike people who are dishonest and selfish... To their friends, to their colleagues

《爱杀17》靜的秘密日記

2007-07-11T01:23:00.000+08:00

第一話青春

我一直以為，我活不過十八歲.............反正變成大人，一點都不好。你再也不能賴床，不能光明正大玩你心愛的玩具，更不能把不喜歡的責任推卸掉。最重要的是，你再也無法擁有純真的笑容；因為大人，真的很骯髒.....
青春，到底是什麼？是盡情恣意揮灑自我的歲月？還是享受天真爛漫的遊樂園....？無論如何，如果可以，我希望永遠繼續這樣，永遠不要長大，永遠永遠停留在我的十七歲.......
我是什麼時候開始喜歡他的？我記不得了。只知道每次見到他，心跳總是莫名加速，好像有一股沸騰的血液在身體裡面竄流....
我喜歡這種感覺，我喜歡這種離得很近，又好像離得很遠的不確定感...。因為我知道，不管我有多孤單，多哀傷，這個世界上，還有一個可以牽掛的對象，我的心思，是跟著他緊緊相繫的......

第二話秘密

一個人心中，可以藏住多少秘密？一個秘密，又可以藏住多少年？
我的秘密，都鎖在一個盒子裡，
有的痛苦，有的快樂，有的傷心，有的悲哀，
還有的…連我自己都想忘記...............
一個人的心中，原來可以有很多很多的秘密....................

第三話失去

最近，一個茫然脆弱的聲音冷不防地問向自己：
你在害怕失去什麼？失去你最心愛的洋娃娃；
失去你已得不到的一段初戀；失去你已失去的純真笑容……
在一點一滴的失去當中，你自以為擁有的，
不過是一具面目全非的春春屍骸罷了……

第四話承諾

如果，有人答應了你甚麼，只是出自一時的心情，或是一時的憐憫，不管他說得多麼信誓旦旦，那都不是承諾....。真正的承諾，需要責任，也需要出自心底的信任；當對方點頭的那一剎那，你們看著彼此的眼睛，知道把自己交到他的手上，將不會有任何的危險，而且有一種很安心、很自在的感覺.......最真心的承諾，是至死都不會反悔的約定；當你知道有人願意給你這樣的保證，你真的會好開心，好開心，就好像全世界的風鈴，同時響了起來..........

我們該相信承諾嗎？還是我們跟本不應該做出任何承諾……因為各種可能的理由，我們遲早會背叛我們的承諾，然後再用更多的謊言，去滿足我們的背叛......................

第五話愛˙背叛

被愛，是幸福的；被背叛，卻是痛苦的。有人說，一個愛你的人，未必不會背叛你；要是他背叛了你，也不代表他不愛你……。但是，感情如果在建築在這麼曖昧不明的關係上，那是不是表示：愈是背叛，就代表愈愛？所以我們永遠只能擺盪在愛與背叛之間，沒有終點？

第六話謊言

殘酷的真話，和動聽的謊言，你想聽哪一種？曾經，我說了九十九句真話，沒有人肯相信，唯一的謊言，大家卻當真了。從那個時候開始，我發現所有人都寧願活在謊言當中，因為說謊，不是為了欺騙別人，而是為了欺騙自己.....現在的我，已經分不清楚什麼是謊言，什麼是真實了；什麼時候，我才能誠實的面對我自己？...也許，要一直等到我再也不能說話的那一天吧...童話裡那個放羊小孩後來怎麼了？面對被惡狼咬死遍佈山坡的綿羊屍體，他心裡面到底在想些什麼？我相信，他那時痛恨的決不是說謊的自己，也不是那些兇狠的狼群，而是那些自認安分守己，卻任憑他無助地目睹這場殘酷殺戮的村民們.....

第七話羨慕和嫉妒

羨慕和嫉妒，只是一線之隔。一般人總覺得羨慕比起嫉妒，好像善良一點，可是對我來說，羨慕卻只是愚蠢至極的消極行為。我享受嫉妒，也享受讓人嫉妒，因為它提供我一種動力，讓我可以面對自己和這個世界的不完美；然後，再針對對象，去選擇破壞或是超越.....是的，我享受嫉妒，即使，它是一股足以吞噬心靈甚至玉石俱焚的的邪惡力量.....

第八話恐懼

人，為什麼會恐懼？面對黑暗、寂寞、失去、傷害，或是死亡的時候，我們為什麼會那麼害怕.....？但幾次的恐懼經驗，終於讓我瞭解到，人之所以在那一刻如此脆弱，是因為我們不知如何去掌握眼前那莫名的未知數....所以，如果我們不去在意那些未知，甚至，試著和恐懼交朋友，那麼恐懼，也該能從痛苦，化為喜悅與刺激吧？只是，這些喜悅與刺激，有時也會帶來更大的恐懼；然後，我們就得花更多的力氣，再把這個恐懼，轉化成更迷人更強烈的狂喜..........

第九話慾望

我的心裡，有一道門。那裡，鎖著一隻猛獸，叫做慾望的猛獸。我常常殘酷地把它鎖在門後，聽它以利爪搔抓門板，發出一種撩人的尖銳聲；直到它發出悲鳴，甚至怒吼的時候，我就會放它出來，帶著它，到處尋找獵物……其實，那些獵物通常不難找，因為它們，剛好也都關在一個個男人的心裡。於是，我凶猛的寵物，會先以馴服的姿態把它們引誘出來，然後，再一口將它們吞噬掉……當然，既然在慾望的國度裡，存在著弱肉強食的殘酷面，我自然也早就做好心裡準備，等待哪一天，我與我那頭猛獸，一起被吞噬到另一張，有如深淵般的血盆大口中……

第十話偽裝

他們以為我年紀小，聽不懂。其實，我都聽進去了，而且牢記到現在；因為，我一直偽裝得很好，就跟媽媽一樣。我永遠記得那天媽媽的表情，即使聽林伯伯說著那麼嚴重的事，她臉上卻沒有一絲一毫的憤怒或悲傷……不，應該說，什麼表情也沒有……是的，偽裝，那是我從爸爸，媽媽，美琴阿姨，還有其他大人身上，學會保護自己的第一課。因為，我不想像林伯伯一樣，縱使再怎麼對人挖心掏肺，到頭來，終究還是落得那般孤寂無助的下場……

第十一話遊戲

我第一眼就看出，她會是我這個遊戲裡，一個很好的實驗對象平凡、懦弱又缺乏自信；就像紙黏土一樣，可以輕易地讓我捏成想要的樣子。相信以後的兩年，一定會很好玩……其實，我根本不喜歡小愛，甚至，還有點厭惡。可是，既然遊戲進行得還挺有趣，當然也就沒有停止的必要。……因為，我真的很想看看，像她這樣的一個純樸女孩，到底可以跟著我沈淪到什麼樣的地步……

第十二話愛情

世界上最殘酷的遊戲，是什麼？答案一定是愛情……因為根本沒有一套攻略可以教你攻陷對方心房，也沒有任何一種武器，可以給情敵致命一擊；所以，每個人只好不停的換角色練習，讓自己升級成為玩家……愛情遊戲裡的寶物，常常是對方的秘密。很多人以為得到了，就可以化身為戰士，再也不怕受傷害；卻不知人的佔有欲，會驅使他想探究得更多、更深，最後終於深陷其中，無法自拔就像一隻飢餓的蛇，迫切咬住足以保命的食物，卻不知嘴裡正在吞噬的，其實是自己的身體……

第十三話毀滅

人類，其實是一種很脆弱的動物，你只要設下陷阱，等待獵物上鉤，那個注定被毀滅的對象，就會像一個無力求援的洋娃娃一樣，輕易被你扭曲在手心，再也無法動彈……只是，當我漸漸沈迷於操縱別人的快感之中，卻忘記我也可能變成別人的獵物；直到我的喉嚨被緊扣住，再也發不出任何聲音，才發現背後那雙早已想毀滅我的眼睛，竟然是……我自己。一如那隻吞噬自己的蛇……

第十四話救贖

童話中的公主，總是期待著有一天，王子會前來解救她，用最深情的一吻，洗滌她滿身的傷痕，然後，帶她到一個美麗的天堂那裡，沒有背叛、忌妒與恐懼，而是永遠充滿歡樂和純真的幸福國度……可是，萬一公主甘心沈浸在永無止盡的噩夢，不願醒來，使得深愛她的王子不管給她多少次吻，也依然無法將她帶離那座遭受詛咒的邪惡城堡那麼，是否要等到末日審判來臨的那一天，她才可能從上帝那裡，獲得最後的救贖？

1st August

2007-06-25T23:50:00.001+08:00

The Date is tentatively 1st August 2007.

The event?

To be revealed..

By the way..

it's with >90% certainty that it WILL happen. :)

敬请期待~

countdown: 36 days

How things have changed over the years...

2007-06-25T23:40:00.000+08:00

Met up with my old old old fren on Saturday... and had a v long chat.. Glad that she has found someone FINALLY!
But looking at the pic... gosh we have all grown older.. wished i had the pic we took like 10 years ago to compare.. (but its in my old lappy, lazy to transfer)

How things have changed over the years!! But one thing for certain, we have both grown older..and (hopefully), Wiser. :)

It's not how good you are, It's how good you want to be.

2007-06-25T23:17:00.000+08:00

'Nearly all rich and powerful people are not notably talented, educated, charming or good-looking.

They become rich and powerful by wanting to be rich and powerful.

Your vision of where or who you want to be is the greatest asset you have.

Without having a goal, it is difficult to score.'

Just read this book by Paul Arden.. very inspiring indeed. Read it, and you'll know what i mean...

By the way, these are some quotes to share:

'There are no short cuts to any place worth going'
Beverly Sills

'Some people take no mental exercise apart from jumping to conclusions'
Harold Acton

'Happiness is a singular incentive to mediocrity'
Michel Montaigne

And we all wear masks

2007-06-20T21:58:00.000+08:00

What comes to mind when you have someone who is very unpredictable, and changes what he/she says and does very frequently?

Unreliable.

.. and for that i quote my boss.
what an irony...

Missing

2007-06-20T21:21:00.001+08:00

I learn something new about people everyday, and meet with the weirdest of candidates and situations.

In a recent case, this candidate of mine took up a job with this particular bank just about a month ago, and decided to leave shortly after cos she was too stressed up due to her CFA exams. Her employer claimed that she seemed very emotionally unstable and was all tears when she tendered her resignation.

We called her up at her house and her mobile and couldn't find her at all. Next moment her landlord called to accuse me of being a loanshark/debt collector and to inform that she has already moved away.

Just today, her husband mentioned that she has migrated to Australia (in an extremely hostile manner).

All these happened within a span of 2 months?

Things can't get weirder.

And believe it or not, this candidate of mine, she's a snr professional who's drawing ~5K a month.

Beats me what these "senior professionals" are thinking...

First Resignation

2007-06-19T20:43:00.000+08:00

Just received news today that one of my colleagues has resigned and her last day is on Friday.

Though I did had this very strong premonition that she will leave sooner or later, kinda didn't expect it to be so soon.

3rd July marks my 1 year anniversary with the company.

It makes me think.

New Hairstyle

2007-06-18T22:52:00.000+08:00

Cut my hair about 2 weeks ago. Was quite a drastic change compared to my previous hairstyle. Can't seem to find a better pic to describe my hair now. It's almost like the girl in the pic of the japanese girl on top, only more brown. have also changed the hairstyle of my maple character. kawaii ne!

By the way... Boss is nt around today. Hurray! ^^

B.i.t.c.h.O.u.t.

Ralph Lauren Romance vMail

感情分析

神机妙算- character telling by name!

First Resignation

What your name means??

Time Flies

My Baby Nephew~

Our New Home

《爱杀17》 靜的秘密日記

1st August

How things have changed over the years...

It's not how good you are, It's how good you want to be.

And we all wear masks

Missing

First Resignation

New Hairstyle

《爱杀17》靜的秘密日記